January 6, 2014 in Uncategorized

Happy New Year! What is your New Year’s resolution?

Why worry?

I CAN NOT BELIEVE IT IS 2014 already!
Holy smokes, where did the time go eh? 
Time truly does fly when you’re having fun.

Well, like a lot of humans, I like to take the time on January 1st  to sit down and write out some New Year’s resolutions. Ok…I’m lying. I slept in late on New Year’s Day and went for Chinese food with my folks. Classy.

Now I am a really big list maker. It’s ridiculous really. My fella is always making fun of the notes and lists that I post around our apartment. Sometimes if I’m feeling really ‘listy’, I will take a dry erase marker and put a list on my big bathroom mirror. This can be kind of jarring if you’re not expecting it. It’s also hard to put on your mascara. Sometimes it’s a list, but sometimes I just write a nice quote to get me going on my day. I’m just a really visual person! If I don’t see it, I won’t do it! So when it comes to writing down a list for New Years (which a lot of people seem to hate for some crazy reason…) I am ready, pen in hand.

For 2014, I made the decision that I want to drink less coffee, get to bed earlier and drink my 8 glasses of water a day. Kind of run of the mill stuff, but my BIG resolution is to STOP WORRYING.
Now I wouldn’t call myself a worrier, but I have had numerous people tell me that I am one, which is soooooo irritating. I hate people telling me what I am (don’t we all). BUT it’s true. It’s funny though; I never see myself living the ‘worried life’, because it’s just the way I’ve always lived! I really don’t think worriers would label themselves worriers. Maybe they are people who are just more in tune to the possibility of dying in awful train accidents and such things like that. (God that sounds so neurotic when you say it out loud…eeeeesh).

 

Now I’ve thought a lot about ‘worry’ and what it means. I’ve come to the conclusion that it is…focusing on the past (which you can’t change) and fretting over the future (which is not even written yet) and not living in the present. I seem to fall into this way of thinking from time to time, and although it never stops me from doing any of the fun and exciting things that I love; it’s just not a healthy way to get from point A to point B!

FOR EXAMPLE: There was a truly Canadian snow-day two days ago (minus 30 and plus 20cm of snow…it’s the freakin’ snowpocolypse!) and I sat in my apartment, took out my sewing machine and decided that I would sew a full scale bed quilt!  It took me from 11am to 11pm, but I did it. Now, I know you’re thinking ”WOW! Meaghan, you should be so proud of yourself!! How great is that! How productive” …..or maybe you’re thinking “Get a life grandma!”. I don’t blame you for thinking that.
Regardless, the sad thing is…a really unfortunate thing would happen to me while sitting in my living room sewing that quilt, I would get this feeling of worry rise in my chest and this voice would come ringing in my ears. ”oh my god…MEAGHAN….you have so many other things you should be doing….stop wasting your time…” HOW AWFUL IS THAT?! haha.  I was doing something so fulfilling and fun and my brain was trying to take my joy away! What a jerk of a brain. Sheesh!

So there it is… my new years resolution is to live more in the present and to have fun doing it! AND I really do have fun. I love my life, but I’m going to try my darndest to cut whatever unhealthy worry I find out of my life because it doesn’t do a thing for me but waste my time and my energy. Life is too short to watch it fly by. Right?

So Happy New Year! And all the best with your own resolutions!
I’m off to read a great book under my brand new homemade beautiful quilt.
ps. I’m turning 25 on January 10th! Woot!!

xoxox

Meaghan

 

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